
“After the bombs, My Berlin”
by Heidemarie Sieg
Review by Sam Richardson
“Political leaders declare war, but the people have to carry it out and ultimately are the ones really paying for it. Children of war casualties are penalized most, as they are denied a normal chain of events in their youth.” -Heidemarie Sieg
For millions of Europeans, the tragedy and suffering of World War II did not end when the fighting stopped. In her memoir, “After the bombs, My Berlin,” Taoseño Heidemarie Sieg, known locally as Heidi Smith, paints a graphic picture of a child’s life in post-World War II Berlin. Born in Germany during the war, Sieg’s earliest memories are of a family forced to flee the city many times to avoid the consequences of allied bombing. Her family, like most in Germany, suffered many misfortunes which continued for years after the war.
Sieg’s father, a German soldier, was killed late in the war while on leave in Berlin, evidently caught by the Russians who had begun taking over the city. Ironically, her father had been denied the use of civilian clothes by his mother-in-law, Heidi’s grandmother, for reasons that had to do family issues. Had he been wearing civilian clothes he might have escaped the Russians.
Her grandfather, who she calls Opa, was suspected of being a Nazi collaborator and abandoned the family when Germany’s defeat was final. He moved to East Germany and, even though the family knew he was alive and living with relatives, he was never seen again in West Berlin. Her grandmother, Oma, eventually divorced him in absentia.
Heidi’s mother, who she refers to as “Mutti,” by war’s end a widowed mom with two young daughters to support, persevered and was able to move her two daughters, Heidi and Margot, back into their pre-war apartment. What was left of the third-floor unit had a hole in the roof from the bombing, electricity was only available two hours a day, and the toilet was down the hall and a flight of stairs on the floor below. The building was surrounded by bombed and burnt-out structures and citizens returning to the neighborhood were required to spend a certain amount of time sorting through the ruins to find intact bricks to be used in reconstruction.
All Mutti’s possessions, meager as they were, had been confiscated by border guards in Czechoslavakia when the family was returning to Germany after one of many escapes. Even though Mutti was able to find work, clothing for her daughters, furniture for the apartment, and sustenance for her girls, food was scarce. Heidi remembers being hungry much of the time.
Soon after the family moved home, sister Margot was diagnosed with tuberculosis. Since most aspects of life from how much food they got to what level of schooling Berliners were allowed were strictly controlled by state agencies immediately after the war, Margot was ordered to a sanitarium to heal. She was there almost two years.
Sieg describes a life of austerity and discipline. Most necessities of life were in short supply and the children gained an appreciation for simple pleasures. A monthly treat for the girls was a Mickey Mouse comic book that her mother would bring home from work on Fridays. Then the girls would race home, trying to be the first to get there to read the comic.
Berliners that the author writes about were a society of hard-working people, eager to rebuild their lives. Everybody worked. High school was on three levels: students went to trade school, technical school or were qualified for college, with only a select few able to gain higher education. But the rest, after learning a trade, went to work and began building some sort of career.
Heidi didn’t see her first movie until 1950. Even though the cold war was escalating and the Berlin Wall was soon to be in place, Berliners were able to establish the routines of normal living and found celebration in what pleasures of life were available to them. Sieg’s description of her family’s Christmas rituals are warm and sentimental. That was a time of year when plenty of food seemed to appear and, even though gifts were meager—a stocking filled with an apple, a candy and a pair of wool socks was considered abundant—the family celebrated the season as they had before the war.
Another aspect of WWII that many people are not aware of is the fact that when the war ended not everybody went home right away. The Russians kept German prisoners for years, working them as slave labor, rebuilding their country. Sieg gives detailed description of her Uncle Helmut who was a prisoner in Siberia and didn’t get home until 1949, four years after the war was over.
When she reached 18, Heidi decided to venture out into the world. She was able to find work as a cook, then a governess in Switzerland, where her horizons broadened considerably. She made friends and developed an entertaining social life but during this period, in 1961, the Berlin Wall went up.
The author tells of the panic Berliners felt, not knowing the consequences of this historical event. Heidi, on instruction from her mother, remained in Switzerland but was able to return home later. Toward the end of the book, Sieg recounts the joy that swept through Germany when the wall finally came down and describes East Berliners almost like country bumpkins come to the city for the first time as they streamed through the wall and marveled at how modern West Berlin had become, while East Berlin had remained locked down in dull pre-war austerity.
After a few years in Switzerland, Heidi decided to take another giant leap into the appealing and unexplored unknown and migrate to the United States.
In 1963, Sieg and a friend, having jumped through the hoops of the Visa process and obtaining jobs in New York City area, boarded a passenger ship bound for the states. And that is where she concludes this memoir. Her next book, working title “Nine Lives and More,” will pick it up from there and tell how she came to Northern New Mexico.
The book occasionally jumps back and forth between parts of Sieg’s story and requires the reader to flip to another section for reference but, on balance, the work is a page-turner and an compelling, meaningful read, especially for anyone born during the WWII. While American children were being told, “Clean your plate, people in China are starving,” little did they know that children their age in Berlin were hungry much of the time. And where Americans had huge post-war Christmases with plenty of food and gifts, European kids were happy to have a Mickey Mouse comic book once a month.
“After the Bombs, My Berlin” is a good story, well told, and lesson in how the histories of the United States and Germany remain intertwined, not only through the events and consequences of war but by the migrations of their people.
“After the Bombs, My Berlin,” can be found in Taos at the Blumenschein Gallery on LeDoux Street or can be ordered from www.HeidiSmithGroup.com.